Seeking Purpose and The Dweller
A reader asks for advice on how to find his calling.
If you just wait around to be called you will become pretty frustrated. The key is to find a service that you enjoy and will be helpful to others and plunge into it. If you are then headed the right direction your soul will increase your energy and peace and you will know it is right. If for some reason the choice is not good your soul will send you feelings that something is not right.
Notice in your dream you were told to find a girlfriend — not a love interest. It is quite possible that you need female friendship more than love for the moment.
You say you felt a burning in your forehead during meditation. This is probably because your third eye center is being stimulated. Do not meditate with this burning if it becomes uncomfortable. A tingling is much better and safer to work with.
You say you spoke to the higher self ants and they obeyed and wonder if they have Solar Angels.
They do have a group life which is attached to an even higher spiritual life but this is a different life essence than a Solar Angel. It makes perfect sense to speak to the higher life of any living thing. Even if you talk to the wind, as you did, a spiritual essence can pick up your “sound” and respond.
You ask:
“Why would a higher force fulfill my request since there was no purpose in it? Or maybe it wasn’t a higher force?”
You asked for help from this group (the Keys) and several responded even though the purpose is no more noble than desiring to get rid of ants. The principle is this:
When the seeker invokes an answer from another living essence and keeps attention on that request, an answer of some kind will come.
A member who read about my Youthful Recollections recently posted thought I should have gone into more detail on my spiritual experience at that age, but went into extra detail about the non spiritual ones.
I wouldn’t say that anything in my account was not spiritual. Often it is those struggles we have in just maturing, moving forward and in relationships that are of significant importance in preparing us for initiation or spiritual experiences.
Here are some of the things I wrote of that I consider important spiritual preparation as a youth:
[1] I naturally believed in reincarnation.
[2] I didn’t see the value of church when it seemed to teach nothing useful.
[3] I didn’t accept an authority unless he made sense.
[4] I weighed the impact of an eternity compared to a lifetime.
[5] I initiated some interesting endeavors.
Even though from an adult perspective the efforts of youth may seem inconsequential, in reality many of them lay a foundation for a whole life.
When you were young, did you believe everything you were told, or did you question? Seemingly minor efforts in youth can create branches that lead to great accomplishments.
Why do I not give you the full account right now? Well, the experience was quite personal.
If I had a full knowledge of The Beast, the mark of unearned authority, the ‘inner God,’ etc., then the decision to call on God to heal would have been a no-brainer. But because I did not know these things the decision to move ahead was difficult and weighing what to do created a point of tension.
Knowledge will often change a circumstance and prevent a point of tension in a certain area from being created. On the other hand, partial knowledge will often lead the seeker to a point of tension to obtain greater knowledge.
Question: You mention inner and outer authorities. Did you think this way as a teenager?
I didn’t think in terms of outer or inner authorities at the time but I did learn to trust my own best judgement above religious authorities and did not see the church leaders as infallible, though I figured they must be the best that God could come up with.
I also did not use the term ‘spiritual science’ when young but I was a student of science and approached religion with a scientific approach and thought that true religion and science should agree.
Question: Does the discipled just have one major confrontation with the Dweller or several?
I’ve covered this previously. Here is the quote:
“Yes, the seeker will have many mini encounters until he is eventually forced to confront him head on — or shall we say the Dweller realizes it must fight for its life and confronts the disciple head-on in an attempt to discourage him.
“Eventually the disciple must overcome The Dweller without the help of his Master.
“The confrontation with the Dweller will be a major event in each life of the disciple until he [The Dweller] is completely neutralized.
“The first major confrontation with the Dweller could happen at an older age but subsequent ones will usually happen before the age of 21.”
Joseph Smith, for instance, confronted his Dweller but received help from one higher than himself to free himself. Eventually the disciple must wrestle with his Dweller and dominate him. After this happens its power in each life will be diminished. Even so, the experience will be difficult.
Any new initiation is worked on after the age of 21. Before the age of 21 the disciple retraces his steps.
A reader asks me if my experience of being excommunicated and losing my wife and kids would qualify for the Great Renunciation of the Fourth Initiation
It was a difficult experience, but it wasn’t a Great Renunciation. When I faced excommunication, I figured it would cost me my wife and kids. It did not happen as quickly as I supposed but later when another path was revealed to me I knew for sure that if I followed my soul that I would suffer this loss. A greater problem than merely being separated from them was that my ex-wife saw me as being in league with the devil and instilled her thinking in their minds.
There’s not a day goes by that I wish I could have been with my kids during their tender years and guided them, not only toward greater light but just normal life like social skills, playing ball and building their confidence. Instead, I had a continual fight with my ex-wife who did everything in her power to prevent me from seeing them or having any meaningful dialog with them. After I did see them she interrogated them to see if I had poisoned their minds with my teachings. This made these fragile souls terrified of having any meaningful dialog with me. I could write so much more but this will have to suffice for now.
As harrowing as it was to sacrifice my family this was not my great renunciation for the Fourth Initiation.
As difficult as this was, I could see that certain decisions had to be made for the greater good and had faith that in the end the justice and fairness of God would prevail.
In the Great Renunciation the disciple can see little or no hope that this will be the case.
Take Abraham for example. God promised him that he would have a great posterity through his only son, yet commanded him to slay Isaac. The slaying of his son was bad enough but an even more difficult problem was that it appeared God’s very promise would be broken and if you cannot have faith in God then what do you have?
Utter despair.
The Christ saw the greater plan, but the disciple Jesus wanted more than anything else to build the kingdom of God. He was told no — that he would have to sacrifice his life instead. He had to give up his greatest dream to serve God to pass the Fourth Initiation.
My guess is that he even received a promise that he would be an instrument in building the kingdom and it appeared that God was breaking his promise through leading him to the crucifixion.
Was this one reason why he said to God: “Why have you forsaken me?”
Before reaching the Great Renunciation the disciple will think he has sacrificed everything several times but when the Fourth [Initiation] occurs he will discover that his attachments reach deeper than he ever imagined. He never saw himself having to give up such attachments for they seemed so benevolent in nature.
When the disciple passes the third he can be trusted by the brotherhood to see through illusions as they present themselves. When he passes the Fourth Initiation the can be trusted to not get sidetracked by the pull of an attachment, however good, and thus moves on to work on the Fifth Initiation of where he brings down a revelation from higher planes to initiate a work that will benefit mankind for a times to come.
“And if thou shouldst be cast into the pit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the deep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good.” Doctrine & Covenants 122:7
June 26, 2008
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