1999-2-16 03:41:00
My Friends,
I do not have much time tonight so I thought I'd say a few things in support of Rick. He has posted some information on his situation for all to read and also written me privately. I really feel for him because I also had a very awkward first marriage.
There were many times she brought out a rage in me that I wasn't even aware that I possessed and it was only through the extreme exercise of self control that I was able to follow a harmless path. I can only imagine the difficulty of an ex that you do not get along with moving in after the divorce using your child as leverage against you.
I thank God everyday for my current wife - that she is kind and supporting yet still has a definite mind of her own. I am grateful that there is someone in this world who appreciates me for who and what I am and wish all of you the same end in your search.
When we make a great effort to progress upon the path a vacuum is created behind is that tries to suck us backward at our weakest moment. If this negative force does not pull us backward it will create an attack when our guard is down at our most vulnerable point.
For instance, I have noticed that after a person receives a strong dose of soul contact he will almost always receive a strong negative pull within a period of three days after the contact. Then over half the time he will yield to the negativity and the soul contact will be as if it never was. Then if he resists the direct attack on himself the negative force will often rest upon his friends.
Sometimes after I had a major attack from my first wife she would say something like: "I don't know why I said those things. It was like it was not even me that was saying them , like I was just watching what was happening."
My observation of this negative force is that it always trails after he who is making spiritual progress. I have concluded that it is a necessary thing that works in the end to stabilize us in the light. When we can stay focused in the soul with a negative force pulling us back and negative people and circumstances trying to distract us then we finally reach a point where we have earned the right to stay permanently on out next plateau.
When we slip and make mistakes and then center back in the light and look back we can almost always on hindsight see what we should have done. We need to take strong note of this and use the knowledge of the past to penetrate the future fog into the permanent light.
We don't know Rick's side of the story, but apparently he is in trouble and I know we all feel for him for we have felt his spirit here in this forum and we know his essence is good. Obviously he is being tested by fire. Let us all think, pray, meditate and send protection and love to him as we sing the song. With our support I am sure he will work his way out of this problem as will several others of you who are having all the problems you can handle.
Working our way out of these life problems is sometimes very difficult, but the experienced gained is always a knowledge that you wouldn't trade for a pile of books.
In my own life I see several potential problems that could develop in the near future and I am taking steps to see they are harmlessly neutralized. This is what we must do. Look ahead and see what is coming and then add 2+2 and see the probably future. Then if you do not like what you see you must immediately act to change it so your life progresses onward under your control.
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