Looking Inside

1998-12-22 18:30:00

I wasn't aware that Belle was going to post the information on my astrological chart on this list. I knew she was passing it by the astrology list. It's all right that she did it but I do not want the list members here to think I'm trying to draw attention to myself as I much prefer to put your focus on the teachings.

Samu suggested I reveal some of my history, and I may write a book about it later on, but I want to do everything possible right now to avoid representing the power of the Beast in any degree by projecting the ego as any type of focus as compared to pure teachings which have to be discerned by your inner soul.

I will give you an interesting tidbit, however, that is related to teaching and Samu's comment about his mother's cancer.

My mother also had cancer a while back. I know that I could have helped her, but she decided to use orthodox means and use the regular Chemo. She was lucky and did overcome the Cancer, then it came back and she licked it again. The treatments left her considerably weakened though.

Now my sister has cancer and she is taking massive Chemo treatments and does not seem to be so lucky. It looks like her days are numbered. I have known that I have the faith and knowledge to heal her, but she does not believe I have anything to offer her.

Because I do not go to church, and most of my family is quite religious, I am the last one that they would call on for advice or spiritual help. It saddens me that I know I could help my sister, but my hands are tied.

This reminds me of the story of Jesus when he visited his home area. They told him: "We know who you are. You are the carpenter's son -- you're just an ordinary guy." They probably even criticized him for not attending the Synagogue on a regular basis. Then it is written that Jesus could do no miracle among them and even He "was astounded by their unbelief."

It is an interesting principle that when we get to know a person on a personality basis that we assume that what we see on the surface is all there is to him. I am sure that we on this list see much more of the real in each other (and we have never met on in the physical) than our friends and family see in us.

God lives in each one of us and if we look beyond the flaws of the personality we can see the good, the beautiful and the true -- we can call forth the miracles of Christ from the ordinary fishermen as Jesus did.